Hurt

What is hurt?

A feeling of mental or physical pain, according to my nifty dictionary program.

What about the heart? Has anyone considered the Heart? How do you define the hurt of a heart? The hurt of love? Helplessness?

As I once said, A thousand cuts to my body is nothing compared to a single cut to my heart by your actions.

Hormones.....I blame them for everything occurring in my love now. Girls? Hormones. Why do I even care about pretty girls? Because they're worth it? NO! Are they worth the destruction of a heart? A life?

Let's take this example. I like her. She doesn't like me. Rejection=hurt.

Or put it this way. I like her. I don't tell her. She gets a boyfriend. HURT.

In fact, I can give about a million examples, but all end in the same way, NOT GOOD.

Heck, I don't even feel hurt now. All I feel is a slight annoyance, the kind you get from flies, or things going south. No anger, no pain. Ok, a slight pain.

Man, I wish I can get out of this crap.

Last Song for you.

Ain't it weird how you can share a bond with a stranger? And then you become bonded for life? Well, whenever I hear this song, I see how deep was my bonds to her, and how I severed most of it, despite the pain. Well, since it's in Japanese, I added my own lyrics. The original translation can be found here.

Please pair these lyrics with this song.

I had once told you that I didn't know why I kept on loving you,

You just smiled back at me saying that you didn't know.

I tried to hold your hand as we looked up at the sky, seeing stars.

The first snowflakes fell down brushing against your cheek.

I thought that, you were eternal.

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

I still recall that last time,

You stood before me, so pale and frail,

I hold you tight in me, afraid of losing you.

But one day you just vanished,

Out of sight, Missing from my life,

The winter snow still fell down even though you're gone.

Where were you? Where are you now?

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

I cannot forget still, the last tears in your eyes....

Please know that when you were gone from my life,

I sat there all alone wanting you by me,

I harbor all the guilt that I took you just for granted,

Please stay again.

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll always remember,

Your eyes, Forever shining in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll still shine brighter still.

I'll hold on to you,

You're always be in me.*

I write this last song,

Wherever you may be.

Last Song

Did some work, now please enjoy this song. But wait. After listening to this song, try pairing them with my lyrics.

I had once told you that I didn't know why I kept on loving you,

You just smiled back at me saying that you didn't know.

I tried to hold your hand as we looked up at the sky, seeing stars.

The first snowflakes fell down brushing against your cheek.

I thought that, you were eternal.

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

I remember that winter day,

When you were gone, I tried to find you,

I went out in the snow to find just one more clue.

Somebody told me that you went away,

I couldn't believe, I went out in the white snow shivering looking for you.

Where were you? Where are you now?

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You're never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

I cannot forget still, the last tears in your eyes....

Please know that when you were gone from my life,

I harbor all the guilt that I took you just for granted,

Please stay again.

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll never forget you.

Your smile, Forever Etched in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll never fade away.

I write this last song,

You're in my memory.*

*Though love will hurt, though hearts may break, even when you're gone,

I'll always remember,

Your eyes, Forever shining in my heart.

Though I will forget, though more time may pass, Though I wil grow old,

You'll still shine brighter still.

I write this last song,

You're always be in me.*

I write this last song,

Wherever you may be.

Ok?

Tron Legacy: WTF?

Recognize this?

Last month, all geeks were incredibly happy. Why? Tron lah! TRON LEGACY! The epic sequel to the awesome 1982 movie that is Tron.

Yes, yes, trivialities out of the way, the movie is about this dude, Sam Flynn.

Apparently, he's daddy's little boy, all grown up. Btw, did I mention that his daddy is Kevin Flynn? A godlike Figure in the Grid? Protagonist of Tron?

Guess which dude he is? No, not the dude on the left, that's Jesus by the way, a totally more awesome dude. But yes, Kevin Flynn plays the role of Christ just as well.

Most people already seen the movie, so SPOILER ALERT!

OK, Sam enters The Grid, namely this place.

For Kingdom Hearts Players, hey, I knew you were there! Well, The Grid "vaguely" resembles the KH world of "The World That Never Was". Recognize the Tower? It's the Memory Skyscraper, copied bit by bit...... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANYWAYS, Back to Tron Legacy.

The ONLY best thing about the movie is this. Quorra.

Yes, Quorra.

Ok, stop. Quorra is a Kick-ass Program from The Grid. Played by Olivia Wilde.

Ok, fanboys, stop drooling.

Well, in the end of the movie, Sam brings Quorra to our world. Wow, a romance story, love, all that Jazz. But let us consider the facts of Quorra.

1. She's a program, who has never seen the Real World before.
2. She has no ID, no passport, no money. Ok, so she's in love with a multibillionaire, but HEY! NO ID?!
3. She doesn't know how to use a bloody computer.
4. Did I mention she's an ISO?

Another Bloody amazing fact is The Grid. According to the movie, The Grid was made in 1989. Full stop. 1989. And then research discontinued because Kevin "Jesus" Flynn was sucked into the world. OK.....a quick wikipedia search.

Ah, the Mac SE/30. Most advanced model, for $6500. Wow. Let's look at its specs.

Logic Board	Ports	Power
Processor: 68030, 16 PMMU: integrated FPU: 68882 Data Path: 32, 16 L1 Cache: 0.5K L2 Cache: none 2nd Processor: none Slots: 1 SE/30 PDS	USB: ADB: 2 Video: none Floppy: DB-19 SCSI: DB-25 Geoports: Ethernet: none FireWire: Mic Type: none AirPort Ready: Other Ports: Printer Modem Speaker ,	Max Watts: 75 Amps: .63 BTU per Hr: 256.5 Voltage: 120-240 Freq Range: 48-62 Hz Battery Type: 3.6V lithium
Memory	Video Memory
Logic Board: none RAM Slots: 8, 30-pin SIMM Min - Max RAM: 1 MB - 32 MB Min RAM Speed: 120 RAM Sizes: 256 K, 1, 4 MB Install in Groups of: 4	Resolution Video Memory built-in CRT (built in) 512 x 384 1-bit 640 x 400 n/a-bit 640 x 480 n/a-bit 800 x 600 n/a-bit 832 x 624 n/a-bit 1024 x 768 n/a-bit 1152 x 870 n/a-bit 1280 x 1024 n/a-bit Notes: Screen size is 512x342.
Physical	Software	Storage
Introduced: 1/19/1989 Discontinued: 10/21/1990 Form Factor: SE Gestalt ID: 9 Weight (lbs): 19.5 Dimensions (in): 13.6 H x 9.6 W x 10.9 D Notes: Support Discontinued 9/1/98	Addressing Modes: 24-bit Orig SSW: 6.0.3 Orig Enabler: none ROM ID: $0178 ROM Ver: n/a ROM Size: 256K AppleTalk Ver: 49 Mac OS Supported: 6.0.5 6.0.7 6.0.8 7.0 7.0.1 7.1 7.1.1 (Pro) 7.5 6.0.3 6.0.4 7.5.1 7.5.3 7.5.5	Floppy Size: 1.44MB Floppy Inject: auto Min. Int HD Size: 40-80MB Int HD Interface: SCSI Orig CD Speed n/a Int CD Support:

Okay. Alotta technical stuff. But look at the RAM. 1MB MIN, 32MB MAX.

So, the computers available at the time had only 1/2000 of my current LAPTOP's Ram. Wow. And he could still create The Grid. Amazing.

What's more, The Grid can be saved into a memory card. Wow. That must make it less than 16GB. Than again, did we forget that the Mac SE/30 had only80MB of internal mem at maximum?

WOWEE! I admit, he could've used a supercomputer. But then....how did he afford it? See? I just poked a hole in the logic.

Anyways, A great film, deserves all the credit for Tron! YAY! One last pic for all you peoples

There. I'm DONE! GO TRON!

Work

Working may be hard, but looking for work is harder.

Halo: Reach

Recently bought meself one of these.

For those non-gamers out there, that's an Xbox. 360. According to a hardcore gamer, this is "The Most Advanced Gaming Machine Out In The Market".

OOOOOKKAAAAAAAAYYYYY......................."advanced" caught my ear. That's why I bought this machine. Oh. Not to mention because of this.

I was like, wtf?! Full body motion sensor, scanning, doodah, whatsis?!

But unfortunately for us Malaysia-people, we love piracy. Xbox on the other hand, does not support piracy. In fact, only Ori games can be used on Xbox.

-o-

Ori. Games. Cost. RM120. PER. GAME.

Well, in order for me to NOT die of boredom, I bought a game called Hello,Reach?

Sorry huh. It's Halo:Reach. FPS (First person shooter) with awesome multiplayer. Huh? Whatzat? I HAVE TO BLOODY PAY FOR MULTIPLAYER?

That's the way it is. In order to play Multiplayer, players MUST HAVE XBOX LIVE GOLD ACCOUNT. Which costs about 88 mothafaken dollas. per year.

Okay.....some quick math here. The Xbox costs about 1500 ringgit. Games cost about 120 ringgit. Xbox live costs about 200+ ringgit. Hmm.......So I have to like bloody fork over almost 2000 HARD EARNED CASH FOR GAMING?

Well, looks like I have to get a job for this........life sucks....

Study, Pray, Die

Spm is in session!

Good luck everybody! God be with you all!

Here's a song dedicated to you guys!